Take me away from here...

This is it.

2012-03-01T22:51:00.002+08:00

I can lose every inch of sanity within me whenever i think about Friday which is TOMORROW! :/
Ya rabbi yassir wala tu'assir. Allahumma Ameen!

For now, let's sleep off those worries & save more worries for tmr. haha! Kidding! :]

p.s: You know what? I was thinking of singing, "You know i can't take one more step towards you" (Jar of hearts) to my Civic Tutor tmr before collecting my result slip. :P Hahaha! kk, lame. Yes, I'm stressed. Ignore what i've just said. :/

La Tahzan Zul. :'(

2012-02-29T13:22:00.001+08:00

Is there seriously something wrong with me, to be specific, for a guy, being emotional all the time? I know that i'm unlike any other guy around me who can swallow pain like they did for painkillers? (haha, just joking, bad analogy. :P) Sometimes, i just couldn't help it though. :( Get a grip Zul! When i start to recuperate from my sadness, i'll try to be in a state of denial. I laugh, i smile but deep inside, my heart is wrenching, bleeding, torn apart, filled with anguish and pain. Don't be fooled by the smile on my face that i put on to others because that smile is merely a mask for self-proclaimed denial per se. I can't imagine what life's going to be for me after the release of my A level results. I'm in a stage where one wrong move will toppled the whole building of my dream aspiration.

So, are you going to behave like this forever Zul? Does dwelling upon this matter, shedding tears & losing your self-confidence in this process will do you good, will get you into your dream course in university, will fulfilled your ambition that you've been striving for in your almost 20 years of life? The answer is blatant enough for me to waste a few words & jot it down. :/

Why worry Zul? With more prayers, you'll be less worry. Insya-Allah. Allah hears me. With every tear i shed, He is there. Allah will response to the invocation of supplicant when His servants called upon Him. "Sesungguhnya Allah tidak akan menguji hambaNya sesuatu yang tidak mampu mereka pukul." The 'syaitan' will tricked you to give up hopes but with a strong 'imaan' & faith, you'll not be deceived by the voices of 'syaitan', Zul. You'll stronger than what you've imagined yourself to be, Zul.

Life's predicaments work for only a purpose which is to bring me closer to You, Ya Rabbi. :'( In fact, i should be thankful & grateful to Allah for giving me this trial for me to work on my patience, my endurance & my faith towards the Al-Mighty. Innaa lillaahi wa innaa ilaihi raaji'un. "Sesungguhnya kami adalah milik Allah dan sesungguhnya kepada Allah kami kembali."

Indeed Allah is sufficient for me. Allah is there during my sorrow when everyone else didn't, when they thought that i'll be okay in the end & worst scenario, thought i'm just exaggerating my emotions by rattling on and on. :/ Wallahi, every emotion that i described in each post is what i genuinely feel. Ya Rahiim, please guide me through this journey. Don't let my sadness hinders me from moving on, from chasing my dream, from losing my hopes & purpose in life. I believe that i'll get there, someway, somehow even if i have to take slightly a longer route. Insya-Allah. :'(

p.s: Sometimes it just gets too much. I feel that i've lost touch. I know the road is long. Make me strong.~

The truth hurts. This is reality. :/

2012-02-28T14:49:00.000+08:00

There are some instances when i really wished that you would notice something's amiss but you didn't. You made it sound like nothing happened. At all. No sense of guilt or whatsoever. The thing about me who mean everything i say, is that i think everybody else does too. But, i'm wrong. How could i be so gullible to ingrain that mindset in me. Yeah, my fault for taking bits and pieces of those words too seriously. I don't have to force the truth out of you. If you want to tell me, you would. Period.

p.s: Don't get me wrong here. I'm not enraged. At all. Just let this be here and end here. I shan't pursue this matter anymore.

Allah is sufficient for me.

2012-02-27T22:45:00.002+08:00

This is what i do when i get really bored. -_-"

Worry Ends by Sami Yusuf

Don't be saddened by what you see

By all the lies and treachery

Life is cruel but don't worry

In your heart lies the key
To unwind all the secrets
Of this life we see

When you feel you've lost it all
When you don't know who's your friend or foe
You wonder why you're so alone
Worry ends when faith begins
Don't be sad by what you see
It's true life has its miseries
But one thing's always worked for me
Worry ends when faith begins

Don't be saddened by what you see
I know life can be crazy
A showcase of hypocrisy
In the form of piety
It's just one big mystery
For you and me

I found my peace deep within
Calling inside
Follow what you feel is right

So trust your heart go ahead
Don't lose sight
Follow that voice deep inside

When you feel you've lost it all
When you don't know who's your friend or foe
You wonder what you're so alone
Worry ends when faith begins

Don't be sad by what you see
It's true life has it's miseries
But one thing's always worked for me
Worry ends when faith begins

If you're weak it's not a crime
Don't you know it's blessing in disguise
To know who's honest and who spread lies
Worry ends when faith begins

Don't be sad by what you see
It's true life has it's miseries
But one thing's always worked for me
Worry ends when faith begins

It's confirmed by MOE that the release of GCE 'A' level results fall on this coming Friday after 2.30 p.m.

3 more days to the BIG DAY! :/

Ya Allah, aku redha dengan segala ketentuanMu.

Orang yang beriman tidak akan mudah berputus asa dan harapan. Insya-Allah.

p.s: Whatever happens, happens.

2 years of friendship & still counting. (:

2012-02-26T10:22:00.003+08:00

Been like forever since KKS last went out together. However, this time round, Mahirah couldn't join us as she needed to run some errands for her Seoul trip, i think. Why you no come? T_T It's alright, Insya-Allah, there's more opportunities for all of us to have a complete reunion together one day! :D Thank you so much Nir for treating US ALL (:O) at Fish & Co! Koyak lubang kocek tuh. kekeke! Tapi takpe, semoga awak sentiasa dilimpah rezeki kerana sifat murah hati awak tuh. :P Thank you Fiddy for the two polaroid film photos! You made me wanna buy polaroid camera knowing how awesome that camera actually is. LOL. And to Humairah, Waly & Farhan, thank you for being such an awesomest, entertaining us with the endless jokes & keeping the atmosphere alive! You people not only light up my world yesterday but also created priceless memories that will be forever etched in my mind & heart. :D haha! Mushy much! LOL. :P Yesterday marked the last KKS outing before i'll enlist for NS. Oh gosh, i'm not prepared at all & even the release of A-level results in another 4 days time.:/

All three girls wore black jubah. LOL. :P

Kepala senget-et-et. xD

P.S: I LOVE YOU PEEPS! :D

Here comes depressed Zul. -_-"

2012-02-24T17:23:00.000+08:00

'When...' By Myself. :(

When dreams are shattered and hopes are gone,

Everything seems so wrong,

When the sun disappears & here comes the rain,

Tears descend continuously, heart wrenching in pain.

When disappointment seeps in,

And failure fits in,

When you feel like there's no more light,

What if you're right?

When praying & patience builds the soul,

Overcoming predicaments strong and bold,

When there's nothing left to choose,

You're either stuck or you lose.

When looking back at the path you've taken,

Full of uncertainty & your confidence is shaken.

When destiny has decided your fate,

It's either you'll give up or get back in shape.

When emotions have already taken over the mind,

Endless worries will never make things rewind,

When your heart sinks too deeply,

How could you possibly deny?

When over-thinking makes you insane,

And worrying does the same.

When will be this be over?

The same exact question you've been thinking again.

When life gives me a hundred reasons to cry,

I chose not to give life a thousand reasons to smile.

For happiness is short-lived,

Been living in grief.

p.s: Sorry for this emo-post. I believe expressing one's thoughts through poetry brings a whole lot of meanings. :/

Who else could i turn to if not Him?

2012-02-20T21:55:00.000+08:00

Insya Allah by Maher Zain

Andainya kau rasa tak berupaya

Hidup sendirian, tiada pembela

Segalanya suram, bagai malam yang kelam

Tiada bantuan tiada tujuan

Janganlah berputus asa

Kerana Allah bersamamu

(Korus)

Insya Allah... Insya Allah... Insya Allah...

Ada jalannya

Insya Allah... Insya Allah... Insya Allah...

Ada jalannya

Andainya dosamu berulang lagi

Bagai tiada ruang untuk kembali

Dikau keliru atas kesilapan lalu

Membelenggu hati dan fikiranmu

Janganlah berputus asa

Kerana Allah bersamamu

(Ulang korus)

Kembalilah

Kepada Yang Esa

Yakin padaNya

Panjatkanlah doa

Oh Ya Allah

Pimpinlah daku dari tersasar

Tunjukkan daku ke jalan yang benar

Jalan yang benar

Jalan yang benar...

Whenever i listen to this song sang by Maher Zain, i'll cry bucket of tears. I couldn't hold on to my tears. The lyric of this song is so close to my heart & i felt the same exact sentiment as the lyric goes. Get a grip Zul. :(

My mind is always not at ease these days. Been worrying for my A-level results that will be released soon in another 10 days or so. Been crying in my prayer lately. I can't help it. Broke into tears the moment i 'sujud' and putting my fullest faith towards Him. Ya Allah, may everything be well. :'(

They are here for a reason.

2012-02-19T23:16:00.000+08:00

I want to travel to all the wonderful places in Europe someday, Insya-Allah! ^-^

Random people come into my life & quickly go. Sometimes, i wonder what were their sole purpose of being part of my life story. Is it one of Allah's will to send His servant to stand by me during my darkest period? Or is it a sign from Him to me for something that's bound to happen? I came with a conclusion that, these people exist in my life for a reason & unless they have yet to carry out the mandate, they'll still be present in that chapter of my life story. Hopefully for the good intention, of course. And i have no issue with that at all. Insya-Allah. (:

p.s: Bought 3 novels (Ombak Rindu, Ayat-Ayat Cinta & Dalam Mihrab Cinta) from Larkin. Novel marathon shall begin from now onwards. haha! :P

Because they light up my world like nobody else~

2012-02-18T22:53:00.000+08:00

Look at the transformation of my 2nd granddaughter.

*Hint ---> Hair (Y) :D

This is my twin buddy bro. haha! :P

I remembered that the teachers often confused with me and Kasfil & thought that i'm Kasfil & He's Zul. Okei, stoppit, perplexing much. LOL.

Do we look alike? Hmm... o.O

Had a splendid time with Meroshini, Theeba & Kasfil at Meroshini's house. :D

Yes, they are the ones who light up my world like nobody else.

In 1011C, three of them always stood by me whenever I was feeling down.

I'm just stating from my own observation & i know very well those are who always there for me through thick and thin.

Three of you are the sweetest friends ever and yeah, you all are permanently listed in my "friends forever, family forever & loved ones" lists and nothing could ever change that. Nothing. Even the rain is not strong & powerful enough to smudge that permanent ink i printed in my heart. Bad analogy coming from me but i'll think you all will get what i mean. hahaha!:P

Thank you so much for everything, be it your presence, your kind words & the endless support you three have shown to me. I genuinely & sincerely appreciate every minute thing that three of you have done for me. May God bless three of you always! (:

p.s: I don't live in this world for others. And i don't live in this world pleasing them. (:

Reality check. :(

2012-02-17T21:11:00.000+08:00

Exactly 2 weeks from now. And exactly around the time i'm done with my friday prayer, i'll be on my way to IJC to collect my A-level results. 2nd march - huge possibility that the GCE 'A' level results will be released on that day. Mohon doakan untuk Zul dan teman-teman Zul yang lain eh. :( May all be well. Ya rabbi yassir wala tu'assir. Amin. :(

Seriously, i don't know what to expect on that day. I don't know what does the future has for me. I don't know what will i become in time to come & what will my life be. Tumultuous of negative emotions filled my whole being. I might sound pessimistic and indeed i am. I have never went through such a 'monstrous' journey in my entire life, full of ups and downs, & I have never felt so demoralized at times & also trying my best to hold a grip during my fall. :(

I believe in Allah. I believe that Allah has everything planned perfectly for us. Allah knows what's best for me. I have already done my best & i'm leaving the rest to Him. Whatever happens on that day, i'll accept it with a sincere heart. Insya-Allah. :(

My 'kakak' is so cute. Love her truckloads! <3

We always have this random conversation EVERYDAY using this 'LINE' apps & that really perks me up! (':

We are connected in some way or another...

2012-02-16T14:10:00.000+08:00

Like finally, after twice of postponing our 18 Chefs dining session, we (Syafikah, Atiqah & I) got a consensus to have it today. haha! :P I'm getting sick of 18 chefs food. Sungguh memuakkan. Bleargh. @_@

This is ze most coolest pose ever! (Y)

p.s: A bad hair day for me. Jambul dah macam 'superman'. Haish. -_-" Nonetheless, being in the company of those awesomest duos enlightened my day! Thank you so much for arranging this meet up session & not forgetting enduring with my nonsensical lame jokes. :P But still, Atiqah, we still need to solve another 'mission impossible' with Zakiah for cycling session. lol. :DD

It's either you choose to realise it or be oblivious with it.

2012-02-14T16:07:00.000+08:00

My conscience & intention is always clear whenever i lend someone a helping hand or even shows my deepest care towards them.

Please don't get me wrong here. For every good thing that i've done to someone, i don't expect anything in return. I did it out of sincerity, out of generous concern to the people around me. Muslims are obliged to help fellow Muslim in need right? Insya-Allah. (:

p.s: Who cares if today is Valentine's Day, Tuesday or World Bitches' Day On Earth, i only know that tomorrow is my all time favourite singer and powerful male vocal, Anuar Zain's 42nd Birthday! haha. :P Peace! (Y)

Change is constant. Deal with it.

2012-02-13T00:32:00.000+08:00

I shall make this post a proper update.

To begin with, i would like to apologise to everyone if i have ever gave you a cold shoulder directly or indirectly. Please forgive me. :( Sometimes, i'm too caught up in my own world and succumbed to my own emotions without considering the dire implications that it might lead to others. Struck in my own world. Dive into my pain alone. Taking every single word that you said so seriously though it was only meant to be a joke. In simply term, i'm disappointing all of you with my endless mood swing which i honestly feel that it's totally obnoxious on my part. For that, i'm genuinely sorry. Though 'sorry' doesn't carry much meaning to us these days, i'm sure all of us still possessed that sense of humanity. So, do forgive me aites? :(

The more i know, the less i understand. For every event that has occurred in my life, i always believe Allah is the best planner & He has everything planned for us. However, sometimes, i can't help it but dive into my sorrow, reminisce back into my past - the old times. Alright, I should stop giving riddles. So i'm going to be frank about this. If i have not taken an effort to lose weight during my secondary school days, would i be getting the same opportunities/treatments that i have received so far? Would there seriously be a single soul (in literal sense) who will always be there for me all the times regardless of the numbers shown on the weighing scale? A never-ending process to please humans. *sigh* :/

Well, that explains the fact that i'm always taking comments/compliments/feedback too hard. I'm sorry if i'm being too sensitive. My past has ingrained this characteristic in me. Everyone seeks for credibility, looks & the list goes on which shaped me to become someone who is self-conscious. That's not a good term to describe me though. But too bad.. Deal with it. :/

The truth is everyone is going to hurt you someday, somehow. It's just a matter of time. This world is designed to hurt, crush & break you so that you could return to the path of the Al-Mighty. I once remembered that i have a bestfriend during secondary two but now that someone has disappeared. We don't keep in contact with each other anymore. I wonder how's that person is doing right now. Haish. Harsh reality for me. :( Once everyone has found their own life partner, they will shift their focus of attention towards their dearest ones to the extend of forgetting who they used to be close with. Well, that's actually fine for me because at least i know that person is perhaps preparing for another phase of life or more blatant note; marriage.

The thing that i'm trying to highlight here is that, nothing lasts forever & no friendship is perfect. Trials & tribulations will soon supplement such relationships to test how far we could keep the friendship going & alive. Do we still keep all our promises that we've made or are we merely saying just for the sake of doing so? The saddening part is, everything has changed including the people who have influenced you a lot in your life. I can't blame them. Change is constant. Then, that's too bad Zul. You'll just have to accept it. Insya-Allah.

p.s: Sometimes, it's better to keep silent and let people think you're ignorant then to open your mouth and release all doubts.

All time favourite singer - Anuar Zain

2012-02-12T23:44:00.000+08:00

After all these years, i strongly feel that Anuar Zain has the best vocal ever and NO ONE could ever imitate or mimic his voice. NO ONE. ^-^

Been listening to his songs like for the 10000000000000000000000000 times and i'll never get bored. haha! :P

All his songs' lyrics are full of deep meanings & not merely words. Masya-Allah. (':

It's funny when i watched the transformation that he has went through all these years.

Being attached to the entertainment industry for perhaps 24 years or more of his life, he's always an inspiration to me & will always be.

His voice is totally amazing beyond words! :DD

*thumbs up*

p.s: Manjadda Wajada. Insya-Allah. (:

Sharing is Caring! (:

2012-02-09T22:52:00.000+08:00

'Cause even the stars they burn
Some even fall to the earth
We've got a lot to learn
God knows we're worth it
No, I won't give up

I don't wanna be someone who walks away so easily
I'm here to stay and make the difference that I can make
Our differences they do a lot to teach us how to use
The tools and gifts we got yeah, we got a lot at stake
And in the end, you're still my friend at least we did intend
For us to work we didn't break, we didn't burn
We had to learn how to bend without the world caving in
I had to learn what I've got, and what I'm not
And who I am

Had a blast coaching BVSS debaters for an upcoming Cluster Zone Competition that will be held on the 17 Feb, Friday. BVSS will be sending 2 teams to represent their school for that match & i'm uber excited for them. haha! :DD

Mauduk (1): Ibu bapa merupakan punca masalah sosial remaja hari ini

Mauduk (2): Pengaruh rakan sebaya membawa kesan negatif terhadap diri remaja hari ini.

That feeling when a group of students called you, Cikgu Zul. Masya-Allah. (': *getting emotional already* Pergh! Btw, i didn't ask them to address me as 'Cikgu' but they insisted, so yeah.heh. (:

Though that training ends for about two and a half hours, i'm so blessed to be helping them deciphering those mauduk(s). It sure felt great having an intellectual discussion after quite some time. Special thanks to a friend of mine, Shahirah for inviting me to her school & giving me this opportunity to share my knowledge & skills with them. May all of them benefits from the things i shared. (:

Assalamu'alaikum

-Zulkifli Omar (:

p.s: Feeling sad for no apparent reason. Pergh! =.=

Deep connection with this song lyric.

2012-02-07T12:04:00.003+08:00

So Small By Carrie Underwood ---> #onrepeatpeatpeatmode (:

"I know it's hard on a rainy day
you want to shut the world out and just be left alone
But don't run out on your faith"

"Cause sometimes that mountain you've been climbing is just a grain of sand
What you've been up there searching for
forever is in your hands"

"It's so easy to get lost inside
a problem that seems so big at the time
it's like a river thats so wide
it swallows you whole
While you sit around thinking about what you can't change
and worrying about all the wrong things
time's flying by
moving so fast
you better make it count 'cause you can't get it back"

p.s: Those are some of the few verses in that lyric that captures my attention. Have a listen to that song! (:

2012-02-06T06:41:00.000+08:00

"Saya bukan kawan disposable awak. Bila nak pakai, awak cari saya. Bila tak nak, awak buang."

Tolong 'tampalkan' ayat-ayat itu di dalam otak awak. Thank you very nice! (:

Peace out! (Y)

Nir Well Wishes Card! ^-^

2012-02-04T23:27:00.000+08:00

I made this for a friend who was admitted to the hospital & had to undergo an operation.

Alhamdullilah, now she's getting better.

KKS menanti ketibaanmu untuk keluar sama-sama k! Insya-Allah. ^-^

p.s: Because your cool & strong like that, that's why. (:

Pasangan Yang Ditakdirkan Bersama, 15 Jan 2012. (:

2012-02-03T11:19:00.000+08:00

Semoga perkahwinan Kak Falah & Abg Ian sentiasa dirahmati & diberkati Allah swt serta kekal sepanjang hayat sehingga ke jannah! Amin, ya rabb! (:

p.s: "Marry the person that attracts you thru his/her (good) ahklak. After marriage, love starts."

Working Experience At Burberry

2012-02-02T11:52:00.000+08:00

Heylo blog readers! Actually i've been staring at the blogger draft webpage for the past few weeks, but i'm just not in the mood for blogging. Those momentums i had last time seemed to be gone for a while. @_@ This brain juice of mine is not co-operating with me. I need a spark of ideas. Seriously. T.T So, i'll just be updating a simple post about my working life at Burberry.

Whenever i told someone that i worked at Burberry. Their first immediate response would be a short pause and then followed by, "WOW! :O". They sure sounded like they were pretty amazed. That really puzzled me when they acted that way. Yes, Burberry is a luxurious shop selling all those branded stuffs and was established in the year 1856. The thing is, i, myself, treated Burberry like a normal shop though i already knew of their credibilities.

I only worked at Burberry for a month and also including the two public holidays for CNY. My manager wanted me to continue my contract but sadly enough, i don't wish to do so. haha!xD I need a holiday for myself, to spend with my family and friends, to catch up with activities that i was unable to participate during my A-level periods and the list goes on...

Believe it or not, this job of mine has trained me to become a responsible and independent person. I know that sounded cliche but trust me, that's really true. I realised that this job has allowed me to practice many life learning skills such as communication skills with other people around me. Just remember that whatever you do in life, it requires you to communicate and i mean, communicating effectively with others. That explains why schools have taken many initiatives and open doors of opportunities to ensure that students will be nurture to become an effective communicator. Alhamdullilah, Allah has given me the ability to speak sensibly. (:

Yeah, i had a tough time adapting to my new environment and the new friends that i have met at my workplace. Well, who don't right? Especially when it comes in adjusting yourself with new people and surroundings. That sure takes some time before you'll be comfortable with your job.

FYI, i'm not working just for the sake of working and the money that i'll be making. One of my intentions was also to visualise my society, how one portrays themselves to other people around them and other things as well. As far as possible, i always kept my cool and tolerated everything that was being instructed although i was not in favour of some of issues. Starting a conversation with people from different walks of life was indeed an eye-opening experience for me. In short, i feel we should all get out from our comfort zone and try many new things in life (with the right intention, of course. :P)

p.s: Nak carik rezeki mesti ikhlaskan hati, baru dapat pahala. Insya-Allah. (:

For some people, they don't change.

2012-02-01T10:29:00.002+08:00

Man invented the chair for a purpose. And apparently right now, i seriously believe that somebody needs a Hi-5 on their face with that chair. Urggghhhhh.. OMG! *frusts*

You started this. Yet, you are blaming others for following to your flow. Naaa... I get it. You want us to kneel down to your mercy. Well, I'm afraid i have to disappoint you. Fat hope k. Don't you dare mess around with my life. Karma will catch you soon!

Second chances - they don't even matter anymore. When disappointment seeps in, nothing will ever be the same. Who do you think you are? You made it sounded like i'm pathetic, cowardice and worthless person trying to seek my 'wants' in my life. Is that it? Is that how you simplified situation around you so easily, by making assumptions by assumptions, and ending up hurting everyone around you?

Yes, hating takes up a lot of energy but at times, we can't help it. That pain is deeply embedded at the back of our mind and will soon haunt us whenever we are alone.

Honestly, i find it hard to forgive you (again) after knowing that the person you hurt is one of my dearest friends and not forgetting, me. Period.

p.s: "When it comes to you, i have lots and lots of regrets."

Once bitten, twice shy.

2012-01-30T13:47:00.000+08:00

People come and go in my life and I’m getting used to it.Gain immune to it. Insya-Allah.

I have decided. I won’t let anyone in… No more. Not anymore.Never. It was my mistake all along. Ahuge mistake I’ve made in my life. I still chose to blame myself for whathappened. If only I have not responded in the beginning, things wouldn’t be ascomplicated as right now. If only I have not succumbed myself to the voices ofsyaitan, i would be able to resist myself from those feelings of affectionto anyone. However, I’m just an ordinary human. I have my flaws too. Pleaseforgive my sins Ya Allah. :(

For this period, I prefer to be alone. Just leave me alone. Ijust want to be around with my usual close friends. I just want serenity in mylife. No more disturbances from any unnecessary issue. Well, actually, I justwant to be 'me’. The normal ‘me’. If you really understand me, you’ll know whatI’m referring to. You’ll know what I wasand what I am right now. The vast disparities between my previous and currentpersonality. And you’ll also know the intensity of my dislikeness towards issuethat involves matters of the heart. I tried my best to avoid situation likethis but I’ll accept whatever that happened with an open heart. For I’m sincerein undergoing that trial which will changed me in becoming a better person. ForI believe that everything has been planned by Allah and He knows best but I don’t.

Please don’t jump to any conclusion. I’m not trying to breakties here but I would appreciate if people would manoeuvre back to their own positionand let me do the same too. I feel that it’s better this way, don’t you thinkso?

You know what makes me so angry? The fact that I don’t lookat things around me in a whole perspective. I should learn to do that from nowonwards. Listen less to what my heart says and using more of my brain to thinkand weigh the repercussions that are bound to be landed on myself and others.

p.s: Sometimes you just got to put yourself first beforeothers. Though it might sound harsh and cruel but the reality is, you can'tmake everyone happy and satisfy all their wants.

Just leave me alone.

2012-01-28T12:18:00.000+08:00

So much things have happened at a short period of time.

We can't predict what will happen to us today, tomorrow or even a week later.

Expect the unexpected.

That explains why i didn't update my blog.

My mind is whirling with so much things and i neither have any urge nor mood to blog.

Insya-Allah, i'll promise to give a proper update soon. (:

Assalamu'alaikum

-Zulkifli Omar

p.s: Don't give me riddles for i hate to solve. Don't give me statements when they are not complete.

A momentarily event.

2012-01-16T20:10:00.000+08:00

Happy 52th Birthday MAK! :DD

Dear Mum, i just want you know that you are the apple to my pie, the straw to my berry, the sun to my shine? haha! Basically, you're my everything that i have ever wanted in this world. (Mushy much.hahaha! xD) May Allah bless you always! I love you truckloads! :DD My family didn't celebrate my mum's birthday today because both of my nieces and i are down with fever, and my father was working, so my elder sis suggested that we celebrate my mum's birthday once everyone gets better. Insya-Allah. Just by saying a simple birthday wish like, "Selamat Hari Jadi Mak! ^^", my intuition tells me that those words are more than enough to brighten her day. (:

When i was a young boy, i vividly remembered that i always relish the thought of celebrating birthdays especially mine. haha! :P I was living in a world where fairy tales do exist, where 'happily ever after' are the three words that i would describe my life back then. For me, i was too obsessed about making birthday wishes on my every birthday in hoping that those wishes will come true. However, i began to diverge from that thought of an immature guy and i strongly feel that birthday is just a mere reminder to us on how fast time flies, how short life is and how are we dealing and coping with all the trials that the Al-mighty has given to us. Through du'a i seek His blessings and forgiveness on the good and bad deeds that i've done in my life instead of painstakingly waiting for my birthday and make a silent wish. Obviously, that shows i have grown up and thinking rationally on the sole purpose of my existence in this world and reflecting on every action i've took. Hence, i don't really look forward in celebrating birthdays anymore. The felicity that i'll be experiencing is just short-lived and soon after, i'm back to where i first begin...

I seriously should bring myself away from diving into this plethora of 'emotional sickness' which ends up ruining my mood for the day. Though it might be difficult, i'm willing to take another step just to ensure that i'll not be trap in my own world. There's more and better things i should look forward to apart from all these. Furthermore, harping on the same old issue again and again and again won't warrant me anything. So, why should i give a damn hoot to it?

I won't shed anymore tears. I'm getting used to it. (': I believe Allah has planned better things for me in time to come. Insya-Allah. I never regret any decision that i've made in my life so far. The moment when you begin to view life in a different perspective, you'll realise that for every predicament you faced, there's definitely going to be a solution someday, somehow. Maybe not today or tomorrow but there will be a time when you will receive a calling from 'Him' to take the initiative and mend things right again. Insya-Allah.(:

Assalamu'alaikum (:
Zulkifli Omar

p.s: Tak pernahkah kau terfikir, aku yang telah kau sakiti.~

Simple thought, sophisticated mind.2012-01-15T12:30:00.000+08:00
Bon Jovi- Hard times come easy
It's amazingWe go through changesWhen times get crazyIt's up and down,it's hot and coldThese complicationsJust keep on comingThese ain't no runningWhen it comes to life that's how it goes'round and round we goSometimes it feels likeWe're on a roller coaster rideBaby don't you knowIt could eat upIf you try and keep it all insideSeems like hard times come easyWe do a lot of hangin' on these daysBut the heart finds a reasonAnd love always seems to find a wayEven if it hurtsEven if it hurts us babyThere's gonna be thunderThere's gonna be rainThere's gonna be those timesWe both get caught up in the painThe realization
Keeps sinkin' inThe way you make itIs learn to take it on the chin'round and round we goIt's just another dayWith trouble knockin' at your doorBaby don't you knowWe can work it out'cause we always seem to find a cureSeems like hard times come easyWe do a lot of hangin' on these daysBut the heart finds a reasonAnd love always seems to find a wayEven if it hurtsEven if it hurts us baby

'round and round we goSometimes it feels likeWe're on a roller coaster rideBaby don't you knowWe'll keep holdin' onThrough the changes that we feel insideSeems like hard times come easyWe do a lot of hangin' on these daysBut the heart finds a reasonAnd love always seems to find a wayHard times come easy babe
p.s: Off to Kak Falah's wedding ceremony later! hehe! :DD

Jotting my thoughts into words

2012-01-13T00:24:00.001+08:00

Here we go again.

Broken hearts forever make us insane.

Silence aggravates the pain.

Everybody's changing and i never felt the same.

Hey, a little bit of trust would be nice?

Felt like skating on the ice.

Slippery surface.

Slim chance.

i might fall in the end.

However, why did i choose to stand?

I had enough of this cycle.

Running around in circle.

For i'm back to where it start.

And i find this really hard.

For it has fade away.

And i know that it's not meant to stay.

p.s: This is not a song lyric, just a random poetical thought by myself.

You're the special one to me

2012-01-12T23:56:00.002+08:00

For she's the most awesome GP Tutor in IJ & no one can ever replace her. (':

I went to IJC Open House yesterday with a few others in my class with only an intention to meet my dearest GP tutor because that was her last day teaching in IJ. *sob sob* T.T She will be furthering her studies in Texas for her master. Hopefully things will be fine for her over there and she will always be in the best state of health. *wink wink* (;

Thank you Ms W. for taking this beautiful shot of me and my Ms T. :DDD

Both Theeba and i swiftly made our way to CWP and each of us bought a simple farewell gift for Ms Tan. We even printed out the photos that we just took in the afternoon and had it laminated for memories per se. hehe!:P It was a huge relieved when we managed to reach IJ back on time to pass her the gifts before she leaves school. :DD

With Shaliza ZULKIFLI! LOL.

Like father, like daughter. haha! xD

p.s: Cause we're living in the world of fools, breaking us down, when they all should let us be~

2012 awaits us!

2012-01-10T22:30:00.000+08:00

A New Start.
A New year.

A New Beginning.

Everyone needs to set a goal in mind. If they failed to do so, they will perceive life to be meaningless and ordinary to them, like today feels the same as the day before and perhaps the day after. Erase away all the bad memories that we have experienced in 2011. Time to create new memorable memories in the year 2012. Let bygones be bygones and together we will move on to better, bigger things in life. Let our friendship grow stronger and may these ties last forever. Insya-Allah. (:

p.s: I prefer my new year resolutions for the year 2012 to be known only by me and the Al-Mighty. For He knows best and i don't. (:

Precious People In My Life.

2012-01-08T11:27:00.000+08:00

"If Allah brings you to it, He will bring you through it."

Does that quote ring a bell to you? Yeah, i was lucky enough that someone was willingly able to swap my afternoon shift to morning shift so that i could meet the people in the photo above! Woohoo! ^^

Though it was just a simple reunion dinner and a short catching up session with Sifu (from Brunei who was a having a short holiday here in SIngapore) and the TM kids, we really enjoyed and cherished every second of it after being part away for about 6-7 months. Alhamdullilah. Thank you so much Sifu the dinner treat. I feel so bad when he insisted to pay for our meals. :/ It was not actually a complete reunion because our bro UM or kuyuk bro, Tamliikhaa (kidding only okei, haha! :P) is currently pursuing his studies in UM and in the midst of having his semester examinations. We'll pray that you will do well for all of your examinations bro. Insya-Allah! Gambatte! (:

p.s: Allah's blessings come in different forms. I can't stop thanking Him enough. (':

Keep all our promises, be us against the world~

2012-01-06T23:47:00.000+08:00

I owe this blog a few updates. =.=

1) 2012 New Year Resolutions

2) Working experience at Burberry ION

3) Nirrosette's Book Review Part II
4) TITIAN MINDA FAMILY MEET-UP SESSION WITH SIFU! :DD

5) Reminiscing memories for the past 2 years of my life

Insya-Allah. (:

That doesn't sound like 'a few'. LOL. :P

Assalamu'alaikum (:

-Zulkifli Omar

You want to know something about good things? Well, they don't last.

2011-12-28T09:13:00.001+08:00

Yesterday was a horrible night to begin with. Period.

Assalamu'alaikum (:

-Zulkifli Omar

p.s: The truth hurts but lies are worse. I prefer the former than the latter.

Powerful vocal, that's him! :DD

2011-12-27T23:48:00.000+08:00

Alhamdullilah. All praises to Allah for granting me this golden opportunity to meet my favourite singer, Anuar Zain at Singapore Expo. O Allah, it feels so surreal until now. I was in total disbelief. Anuar Zain was just right there, there on the stage, a few metres away from where i was standing with Munirah, her 2 sisters, mum and granny. That moment, no words could express how i felt during that time, not that i feel like crying or whatsoever but i'm just amazed you know, like a dream come true! Masya-Allah. I feel so blessed. Thank you Allah for this once in a lifetime opportunity. (': By the way, i'm not so gugugaga like most fans would react when they saw him. =.= It's that i grew up listening to his and her sister's songs from my first music exposure to the entertainment world. Of course, i would be so jubilated when i met him face-to-face in real life. Like 'duh' right? LOL. :P

Assalamu'alaikum (:

-Zulkifli Omar

p.s: For Allah knows what i want to be and i don't need to announce to everybody.

No more tears to cry, no more words to say...

2011-12-26T00:44:00.001+08:00

Broken Strings-James Morrison

Let me hold you for the last time

It's the last chance to feel again

But you broke me, now I can't feel anything

When I love you and so untrue
I can't even convince myself
When I'm speaking it's the voice of someone else

Oh, it tears me up
I tried to hold on but it hurts too much
I tried to forgive but it's not enough
To make it all okay

You can't play our broken strings
You can't feel anything
That your heart don't want to feel
I can't tell you something that ain't real

Oh, the truth hurts and lies worse
How can I give anymore
When I love you a little less than before?

Oh, what are we doing?
We are turning into dust
Playing house in the ruins of us

Running back through the fire
When there's nothing left to say
It's like chasing the very last train
When it's too late, too late

Oh, it tears me up
I tried to hold on but it hurts too much
I tried to forgive but it's not enough
To make it all okay

You can't play our broken strings
You can't feel anything
That your heart don't want to feel
I can't tell you something that ain't real

Oh, the truth hurts and lies worse
How can I give anymore
When I love you a little less than before?

But we're running through the fire
When there's nothing left to say
It's like chasing the very last train
When we both know it's too late, too late

You can't play our broken strings
You can't feel anything
That your heart don't want to feel
I can't tell you something that ain't real

Oh, the truth hurts and lies worse
So how can I give anymore
When I love you a little less than before?
Oh, you know that I love you a little less than before

Let me hold you for the last time
It's the last chance to feel again

*Someone advocated this song to me for it seriously relates to my current situation. =.=

This blog has not been updated for quite a number of days. I was too exhausted to even type a sentence to update this blog. OMG! I can't imagine that working life has to be this tiring. Well, it depends on that type of jobs that you're in. =.= I'm never keen in doing retail as one of my temporary job's preferences but unfortunately i seriously need a job because i'm broke and i don't want to rot myself at home during this december. Anyway, i'll just have to endure this till my contract ends on 8 January and that's it, time to enjoy myself with family and friends! :DD [I'll update a post specially about my working life soon.]

All of sudden, i felt different. I felt something amiss. Things are never the same anymore. Somehow, there's a barrier between those whom i'm usually close with. I tried questioning myself in every possible way. Perhaps i'm thinking and hoping too much. Perhaps i'm just over-reacting... Or perhaps, i'm right all along... Secrets remain unsealed. Though we usually share it with someone we trust the most, we just prefer to let the matter be, period, no use in pondering about it anymore, no use in burdening others with an unsolved problem that will be dragged on for a few years to come and we still choose to be denial about it. I was afraid to take a step closer, so i decided to take a step back and leave it to the Al-Mighty instead... Have i changed? Or have they changed? People changed, It's inevitable. I'll just have to accept it, Insya-Allah. For Allah knows best and i don't. For i believe that, everything that used to matter, doesn't anymore...

Assalamu'alaikum (:
-Zulkifli Omar

p.s: No more tears to cry, no more words to say...

This isn't right to begin with...

2011-12-21T23:45:00.000+08:00

I'm keeping my promise to someone that i'll update this blog, so here it goes. :P

Whoa, it has been quite a while since i last update this blog of mine because i have started working at Burberry ION last thursday. Alright, my job is manageable but it gets pretty annoying when you have to handle such fussy and fickle-minded customers. Macam nak ambik kasut lepas tuh baling kat muka dorang yang tk beberapa sen tuh. -.-" Not only that, my job requires me to stand most of the time so you can actually imagine how tiring that feels when you have to work for 4 days consecutively. OMG! @_@

On a serious note, the train was not doing justice to me on my first day of work. Sickening MRT, disruption here, there, everywhere. Urghhhh! >:( I was so drained out on my first day of work as i'm not used to stand for such a long period of time. Furthermore, the train disruption had caused massive chaos at Orchard Road and other places in Singapore. It's like this 'domino effect' that the people in Singapore were experiencing. I was very lucky enough that once i alighted from the free shuttle bus at Bishan, the train was functioning normally and i immediately took the train to Woodlands. -.-" SubhanAllah. Let's just skip the emotional part okei when i finally managed to reach home safely at 1 a.m. [Only Allah & someone know about it.] Alhamdullilah. (:

Munirah told me that Anuar Zain will be coming to Singapore on 26th Dec at Singapore Expo to promote something. I seriously can't wait for his arrival to Singapore and meet him face-to-face. OMG! He has been one of my favourite singers throughout these years. His voice is Masya-Allah, so melodious, a gift from Allah swt. :D I'm impressed of his success till today. Insya-Allah, if Allah permits me to meet him on that day, i'll be so thankful but if i don't, i'll just have to accept it because perhaps Allah has planned other opportunities for me to meet such a talented singer like him. :D

That's all for now. Nites! ^^

Assalamu'alaikum. (:

-Zulkifli Omar

p.s: Jika tiada rasa cinta di dalam hati, hidup rasa aman dan tenang sekali. (:

One step closer~

2011-12-12T21:47:00.004+08:00

In case some of you might not know, the one beside me is my second sister, Siti Zuraihah. (:

Swensens' Ice-Cream Cake, YUM YUM! ^^

I'm so sorry for leaving this blog unattended for the past few days. I have nothing special to update about anyway. haha. xD My latest update will be about the recent cover songs that i did for Jar of hearts by Christina Perri and Love you like a love song by Selena Gomez which i posted on Facebook and i do receive positive responds from my friends. Only God knows how they truly feel but thank you so much for their support. You know what? Encouragements from family or friends give me the strength and confidence to continue doing what i have always enjoyed, which is singing. Oh yes, two of them commented that my voice suits Anuar Zain's songs and they prefer me doing a cover for that. (; Soon okei, this is my first time doing cover for songs.

Disclaimer: I hate the version sang by Selena Gomez but as i was browsing through the songs on youtube, i came upon a cover by this guy named, Sami who did a fabulous cover on that song and i really love love love that version a lot. ^^

Anyway, i have privatised the covers that i did for some reasons. :/ So for those of friends who have yet to watch it, i genuinely apologise for doing so. If you really want to watch my cover, you could leave your email on my tagboard that you have already signed up on YouTube and i'll invite you to watch it. Insya-Allah, one day i'll do a better one and that will be the time i'll show the world. (:

Sometimes, i doubt my own ability that God has gifted to me and i'll end up losing my confidence such as my debate and singing skills. One harsh comment from someone and my confidence will definitely shaken like the UNO tower game, where one wrong move made by one of the players and the tower will topple. Alright, i know that my analogy sucks but whatever it is, my confidence will easily be affected by people's judgements. :/ I just couldn't tolerate criticism sometimes and i'll be thinking about it the whole day. Perhaps, i'm a sensitive guy and i kind of take it so seriously on others' opinions towards me. I need to change that perception of mine and become someone who takes comments constructively and do something about it. I mean, that's a reason why people like you or hate you right? They can't be hating or liking you for no reason right? So yeah, i'll learn to accept things and learn to improve them in every possible way.

I should start saying, 'Alhamdullilah' (Praise to Allah) for every gift that he have given to me instead of whining here and there. Some people can't even debate or even sing or even know how to talk that well so i guess Allah has given me a little bit here and there, to have a taste of what it feels like to be debater, a singer or even a communicator? Hmmm....

Yesterday, my elder sister had a simple birthday celebration for her second daughter, Fateen Insyirah who is 2 years old (with effect from today, 12 Dec 2011. :P). May Allah bless my cute niece and may she be cute always. Love you truckloads like i love chocolate waffle and durian pancake. hahaha! xD

I really love my new playlist songs! :DD

May our life will always be filled with sunshine and happiness. Take care! ^^

Assalamu'alaikum. (:

-Zulkifli Omar

p.s: How to be brave? How can i love when i'm afraid.~

Pussy Pussy! hehe! xD

2011-12-08T11:03:00.001+08:00

Whenever I'm feeling pessimistic about life, looking at a photo of Pussy Cat makes me go gugugaga! hahaha!xD

What talking you Zul??? LOL. o.O

(Ignore what i've just mentioned earlier. -.-")

Pussy cat says, "LOOK INTO MY EYES! MUAHAHAHA!XD"

From fat to thin to what i am now. What kind of bull**** have i went through all these years?... Being born that way explains why i'm forever being so insecure about myself!

Then...

Now...

Assalamu'alaikum. (:

-Zulkifli Omar

p.s: In need of cliff-jumping for a moment like this.

Harsh truth of reality...

2011-12-07T20:38:00.001+08:00

Went for job hunting at Raffles Place today together with Theeba, Michelline and Miao Yi. The working adult world is freaking me out sometimes. As i walked around Raffles Place, i feel like a total outcast, not to mention the wrong dress code attire that i wore for interview today. I was so shocked that the three girls wore so formally and i wore such casual outfit. -.-" *smacks forehead twice* However, i was lucky that today wasn't exactly an interview by them, just filling some application forms at the work agency so that they could send our resumes to the companies suited for our job preferences and hopefully they'll call us soon. P-hew. I almost wanted to go back home and change my outfit to a formal wear but decided not to because most importantly, it's the way you carry yourself to others and not entirely your outfit that affects one impression, though it may contributed to one's judgement towards you. Furthermore, i don't think my casual outfit was that bad, so i'll just let it be that way.

Yeah, back to me thinking that i was a total outcast. :P If you observe meticulously the working adult people around Raffles Place, you'll realise that they are quite good looking and they really have good taste of fashion for both men and women. I was astounded and amazed when i randomly stared at those people. O.O *jaws dropped* I didn't expect the working world to be like this. If you think that you're pretty or good looking, these people, the one that i have mentioned earlier are way, way, way much better not perfect but better looking than the typical us. -.-" If you want to know more, try walking around Raffles Place in the afternoon and i bet you could relate to my sentiment right now and feeling insecure about yourself. :( :( :( Looks matter in the working world. Of course you got to have the skills, qualifications and proficiency but most imperatively, appearance plays a part too. :/

Assalamu'alaikum.(:

-Zulkifli Omar

p.s: The most difficult phase of life is not when no one understands you but is when you don't understand yourself.

Graduation Night! (:

2011-12-06T21:15:00.001+08:00

(Just a simple post to sum up everything for prom.)

I shouldn't be so mean and say that prom was boring, yada yada yada because i think the teachers-in-charge and the junior student leaders have put in their utmost effort to make this graduation night ceremony a memorable one for us. So, i'm just going to say that, there are always room for improvements to turn this graduation night into a more joyous occasion that leaves a better remarkable impact for the seniors on the upcoming years.

Basically our prom night was held at Swissotel Merchant Court ballroom near Clarke Quay MRT Station.

This year prom's theme was Luce Stellare Carnevale which means Starlight Carnival in Italian. Vibrant colours' dressing was the dress code for this year's theme.

I must admit that all of them who came for the prom looked extremely dazzling with their cool and fascinating outfits. However, there were one or two, you know, appeared quite shockingly and informally which was a major turned off. -.-"

Alright, let's not talk about the games that the juniors have conducted for us.

(Urgghhhh, sickening!)

I didn't select which table number i prefer to be sitting because most of my classmates went for Chinese cuisine, so those who wanted malay cuisine were randomly assorted to different tables. P-hew, i'm so lucky that i knew most of the people who were together with me at the same table. They were friendly too! Alhamdullilah. :DD

Congratulations to both Jasper and Sage for winning the title of Prom King & Prom Queen. Both of you definitely deserved it. :DD

My sentiment was right. That guy seriously look like a vampire and to be exact, Edward Cullen. LOL. xD Munirah and i were laughing our hearts out. hahaha! xD

Had a lot of photo-taking sessions with my friends which was the only thing i was looking forward about. The rest doesn't excite me that much. hehe. :P

That's all for now. There isn't much things to talk about either. :P

Have a great week ahead everyone! ^^

White suit and light pink shirt inside.

I was feeling weird wearing such outfit and somehow, it was funny that my outfit blend with the table's fabric colour. LOL. xD

I love the hairstyle that i did. :DD #proud

LOVE THEM TRUCKLOADS + FARHAN! <3 KKS FTW! :DD

Assalamu'alaikum. (:

-Zulkifli Omar

p.s: If i say i don't care, your actions doesn't bother me one bit. (:

Runaway Groom Looking For Runaway Bride

2011-12-05T15:14:00.001+08:00

So, how do i look?

haha!xD

Off to prom. Bye! ^^

Breaking Dawn Part 1

2011-12-04T12:07:00.001+08:00

On the night of her wedding to Edward Cullen, Bella Cullen is visited by her friend Jacob Black. When Bella accidentally indicates to him that she and Edward plan to consummate their marriage during their honeymoon, Jacob tries to attack Edward but members of his wolf pack hold him back. He then runs off into the woods, and Edward takes an upset Bella back to the reception.

The couple spend their honeymoon on a private island in Brazil. Although hesitant, Edward has sex with Bella for the first time. After Edward realizes that he bruised Bella's arm, back and shoulders during sex, he says that he will never have sex with her again, much to her disappointment; he later gives in to her seductions. Two weeks into their honeymoon, Bella discovers that she is pregnant with a fetus growing at an extraordinarily accelerated rate, and they rush back to Forks. Bella refuses to heed the urging from most of the Cullens for her to have an abortion, and enlists Rosalie to protect her wishes.

Opposed to Sam Uley's plans to kill Bella and her child, Jacob leaves the pack in protest and arrives at the Cullen house to protect Bella; Seth and Leah Clearwater join him. As the pregnancy progresses, Bella's health severely detoriates. As a last resort, she begins drinking blood, which satisfies the fetus and allows her to regain some strength. Soon afterward Bella goes into a very painful labor and gives birth to her daughter, Renesmee. To save her life by turning her into a vampire, Edward injects Bella's heart with his venom, but nothing happens, and Bella is thought to be dead. Greatly distraught, Jacob attempts to kill the baby, but stops when he realizes he has imprinted on the child.

When the werewolves learn of Bella's death, they attack the Cullen house to try to kill the baby. They stop when they learn of Jacob's imprinting of Renesmee, which, under werewolf law, means Renesmee cannot be harmed. Bella's wounds heal and she wakes up with red eyes as a new-born vampire.

Went to watch The Twilight Saga: Breaking Dawn Part 1 after our last A-level paper on last thursday together with Theeba, Michelline and Kelvin.

I considered it as a simple treat to celebrate the end of A's and my Independence Day! Whee! :DD

I can't wait to watch part 2 of Breaking Dawn which probably will be featured on next year November.

I feel that Renesmee (Bella's daughter) is much more beautiful than Bella. haha.
Just saying. :P

Tmr is prom! yeah baby yeah! :DD
Have a great sunday everyone! ^^

Assalamu'alaikum

-Zulkifli Omar

p.s: There will be no true happiness without some form of pain.

Gain immune to it.

2011-12-03T23:32:00.001+08:00

Thank you so much to both Ain & Zakiah for accompanying me to Orchard on the day before my last A-level paper to get my prom outfit. I'm such a 'good' boy right, went for shopping spree before i declare end of A's. haha! :P Anyway, it's MCQs what. Throw dice also you'll get a number. Kidding! :P I've done practicing with MCQs and that's why i feel like going out on that day to take a break. Staying indoors all the times is not healthy either and we tend to put on more weight.

Who say that shopping alone is boring? Well, i just did it today and it feels great. I have bought all the things i need for prom. yay! *do the bogey dance* Whenever i want to shop for something, i've already planned in my mind which shops i should purchase those items so that i wouldn't waste time. In total, i've spent $310 for prom night. OMG! O.O Now, i'm broke already liao. Haiz.. -_-" On the brighter side, i'm totally excited for prom on this coming monday. Who don't right? hehe. :DD More camwhoring sessions with friends. Life's good man! ^^

From now onwards, i'll prefer to keep my blog post short, simple and sweet.

Assalamu'alaikum. (:

-Zulkifli Omar

p.s: Life is beautiful especially after A's. (:

Fresh Start! (:

2011-12-02T20:49:00.001+08:00

"Here marks a fresh start.
A new freedom for my heart.
My chance at being me.
Doing what I want, totally free.
I can say what I really feel.
And it won't be a big deal.
It's nothing like I thought.
I surived the battles I fought.
My thoughts are all gone,
Like the night at dawn.
My soul is free of sorrow,
I'll do what I want tomorrow.
I can't be held or bound.
I will spread my wings and leave this ground.
Distraction has no control.
My life will no longer be dull.
I will have all the power.
I'll pass the highest tower.
Don't try to stop me now,
'Cause you won't know how.
For I will be totally free.
And I'll be one hundred percent me!"
By x Mo x

Totally the kind of poem that describes my current situation and i truly felt that connection when the poet wrote this.

I'm finally done with my A-level examinations on the 1 Dec 2011. All praises to the Al-mighty for guiding me and granting me strength throughout that period. I'll leave the rest to Him. Not forgetting my family, teachers and friends who have been supporting me from behind. Thank you so much everyone. May God always bless all of you.

I'm in a better state of mind now.
Sometimes, all we need is just to be away from others and be by ourselves so that things will naturally falls back in place.
I have learnt to let it go and move on.
There's no point reminiscing about the past because i believe that the future is what matter the most.
The past is history.
The future should be my greatest concern right now and deciding on the steps that i should take to move on to another phase of life.

Assalamu'alaikum
-Zulkifli Omar (:

p.s: Don't come back for me, don't come back at all.~